I love photography, it’s my form of escapism. I feel as though I enter another realm when I have a camera in my hand. I lose my sense of fear to a degree when there is something that I really want to photograph.
I’ll give you an example; I have a fear of falling and heights, but when I have a camera in my hand that fear goes, I will do whatever it takes to get that photograph, my fear disappears. That being said, when I have finished taking my photographs I then often find myself in a predicament I don’t want to be in. Just last week, at the Mahim fair I found myself balancing on a rotting water tank with the stairs taking me up on the tank all broken .. when i landed up there the base of the tank was full of termites and cockroaches and water all over … that fear of heights scares me so much that i often tell myself “ki Beta upper to chad gaya utrega kaise”?
But at that time I didn’t care, I climbed and stood on that water tank, because it meant that I was going to get a better picture, than if I were to just stay on the road and shoot a routine composition.
However, when I stopped photographing, my legs started to go like jelly, my heart started racing and the fear started to consume me once more. If I didn’t have my camera with me, there’s no way you would see me doing something like that. My camera enables me to do things that I wouldn’t normally be able to do. It gives me super human powers (well, in my eyes it does!!).
I still remember the 1st time I clicked the shutter button of a DSLR. It was 7 years ago, Jan.26 2007.
I was using a Nikon D70s back then and didn’t know how to use all of the buttons, how to focus, what exposure and all the number means and all that.
My modelling career has almost come to an end .. television offers for serials were just not happening .. the two movies which i did got completed but did not see the light of the day .. could not get released.
I was frustrated and disillusioned totally not knowing what to do for a living … so when I started photography at that rough phase, I didn’t expect that I would be doing photography for a living.
I wanted to learn more about Photography so I read books, looked at pictures, and then I stumbled into Flickr. I learned about the 365 Day Project in flickr. Some of my flickr friends were doing it and I wanted to try it for the challenge. Thats how 365 Season I started.
Both the season’s were self project and real challenges for me. I say it was a challenge, because It takes me out of my comfort zone from time to time making me leave my comfort zones and try and jump into other photographic genres and thus helping me have photographs in this project more varied and representing a year of my life which will include landscapes, products, people who are close to me, strangers, happy days, sad days no doubt.
A real mixture of possibilities. I wanted to see what I can do! I followed no rules and i did what i wanted to do.
There were times when I got tired of taking a photo every single day.
Some days, I considered giving up. But didn’t. The end result is worth the effort. I kept reminding myself why I wanted to do it in first place.
There were times i thought there’s nothing interesting left to take a photo of, and times thought I didn’t do anything exciting enough to take a photo of. But there’s always a great photo to be made. So just kept clicking, just didn’t stop.
One gets to practice photography everyday (I was shooting 20min-2hours everyday just to get the perfect shot for the day). It pushed my creativity to the limit! One has to keep thinking of a new technique, new lighting, new concept each day. Using my camera every day helped me learn its limits. I got better at composing my shots, start to care about lighting, and one becomes more creative with photography when you’re forced to come up with something new every single day.
I was in a bad phase when I started the project, it was one of the down times in my life, and the project helped me A LOT. It was my outlet. I got to express myself thru my pictures. (While doing my project, I had a lot of ups and downs, but it’s nice to look back at those moments and see what you have accomplished after a year).
I think the best accomplishment is when you finish the project and you can get to look back the past 365 days, and see how you’ve grown as a photographer and also as a person. I really believe that this is one of the best way to learn and to practice your photography skills. Whether you’re a Pro or just a hobbyist, doing this project will help you in photography.
After my fathers demise i have stopped planning .. but in future Allah the almighty permits me than i would really want to do a 365 Season III on Street photography .. In Sha Allah. When and how i have no idea but YES i would surely go for it.
Last but not the least … friends from Facebook and flckr … your encouragement kept me going! if not for your inspiring and motivating comments both the seasons of 365 would not have been possible.